About Me

I’m Christyn, a homeschooling mom to my vibrantly precocious nine-year-old daughter and, in what still seems to me a most unreal turn of events, a widow. After a valiant five-year battle with colon cancer, I lost my best friend, my great love, my husband Kevin, in April 2013. There are so many things I could say about Kevin, but the simplest and truest is that I loved him deeply and we had a wonderful life together, made even better when our beautiful daughter joined us, making one perfect family. Adjusting to “new normals” is what we do, what anyone who battles cancer learns to do, but this “new normal” will be the hardest. While I know I will go on and keep him alive within me, it will never be the same; he was the best part of me.

This blog is my attempt to give voice to my grief, to provide structure to this “in-between” life I find myself in, to remind myself that even broken lines — and lives — can curve toward joy.

Our friends and family reading will immediately note that I’m not using my daughter’s real name. This is a personal decision, but one I feel is right for the two of us. While she is inextricably entwined in my story, I cannot presume to tell hers; her privacy and safety are uppermost in my mind. Any comments that identify her real name will be immediately removed.

2 responses to “About Me

  1. I was sent a link to your blog today, on my wedding and 6 month anniversary of losing my husband and best friend to leukemia. I have struggled with what exactly I want to say here. My journey has been similar to the words you have shared. I have a 7 year old son that lost his baseball loving, best friend too. Again, I don’t really know what to say other than, thank you. Thank you for putting words to the grief and sense of loss, and being a person out there that really “gets it”. May God hold you and protect you and your daughter’s hearts as you move down this road.

    • Thank you for your kind words and prayer. I found writing makes the work of grieving a little more bearable, because every story I share keeps my husband’s spirit alive and I can’t imagine a world where he doesn’t exist somewhere. I am so sorry for your loss. I don’t even pretend to understand why my daughter and your son have to grow up without their daddies. I believe in God and the promise of heaven, but sometimes that still doesn’t make it any easier to go on with this huge hole in my life.

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